I Finally Did It

Written on July 31, 2010 by Sharla in Spirit

Rain Time For Me

How did I get to this place of being in a box, being so uptight in areas of my life and not allowing myself to enjoy the simple pleasures that God has placed in front of me?

As many of you know I have had this desire in the past three years to throw caution to the wind and run nekid in the rain…well I didn’t do it nekid, but I DID IT CLOTHED and it was BLISS.

I was running errands in Wilmington while visiting my bestie, Kim Melia, and well it started raining so hard that the lights went out in one of the shopping centers…I waited until there wasn’t lightening every where and headed to a ball park that was totally empty (well minus the random park attendant truck that was lurking around every once in a while).

I was excited and somewhat still cautious because I’d never just ran in the rain for fun. I lifted my face to feel each drop run across my face…the drops were distinct and sometimes stung my face but I enjoyed every drop. I didn’t want to stop running, I felt like running for days with this free feeling that I was one with nature.

I was cold at times, as the dress I was wearing was soaked as you can well imagine. I did stop for a bit and just marinated in the rain…standing on a cement wall I did a couple Yoga Poses in the rain-that was incredible. Maybe I should do an entire yoga practice outside when it rains-how fun would that be?

Not wanting to have this free, blissful, and love filled time with the rain I got back in the car and there was this little bird that landed on the hood of the car that just sat there for a minute or so, looking around, it was so incredible-I felt like it was a sign from the Universe that again we are all one, nature, me, you, everything is one and to enjoy every moment in life.

What’s Next

My ultimate goal is to be in a safe, non-judgmental environment where I will be able to feel ultimate freedom by running nekid in the rain. Nothing sexual about it for those pervs out there…but just tribal really or perhaps I’m turning into more of a hippie than I really thought…to feel head to toe one of nature’s greatest wonders if you ask me would be dynamic.

I feel like running to such things all the time, to feel connected, to feel loved, to feel free, to feel playful and stress free…this is wishful thinking I know, because I can’t run in the rain 24/7, or climb trees, dig my feet in the sand, etc. But I’m doing my best right now to implement more freedom activities into my daily life…it’s a journey!

What have you done out of the ordinary, or maybe it is ordinary that makes you feel connected to something greater than yourself?

http://www.tonyteegarden.com Tony Teegarden

You know after reading this, It reminded me of the story Jana shared with me about Nelson Mandela. How could a man imprisoned by his captors within a 10 x 10 room for nearly 30 years, find happiness and freedom?

Interesting question to ask.

Much love & light.
sharlapatrick

Freedom is within not without…however, the outside world shows us what's important to enjoy or learn from. So in this moment in my life nature speaks to me, calls me, nurtures me to some degree because I realize that it's not nature that does those things to me, it reminds me of my wholeness and that Freedom lies within. Being in nature makes me realize and feel that freedom I have all the time but sometimes find it hard to access.
http://twitter.com/carmentorbus Carmen Torbus

Sounds incredible Sharla. Can't wait to read about you taking it to the next step.

xo & belief in you,
Carmen
sharlapatrick

Thanks Carmen…how have you been girl??? What's new in your world-anything exciting?
Lindsay

This blog was very enjoyable Sharla I can relate to the freeing moment you share here. Being a 16 year old teenager I worried a lot about what people thought about me. I worried about my acne, and my hair, how my clothes fit and all of those normal teenage issues. One day I went for a walk on a nearby beach, the weather was overcast but very warm, you know those days when the wind hits you and it’s so warm you don’t even shiver? You just close your eyes and feel it? Well, it was one of those days and the water had big waves and I badly wanted to go swimming.
First reaction was that I’m wearing makeup my mascara is going to run and I’ll look ruined.
I had no bathing suit, no towel and what if someone saw me with mascara circles on my face? After
talking back and forth with myself I decided to just do it. I went to the beach which had started
to clear because the rain clouds were rolling in, walked into the water (with my clothes on), and took the plunge. After diving in those waves it felt like I was washing away the weight of everything negative. It was amazing! I felt like me! I smiled to myself and almost broke down in tears because that moment for me was so freeing. I had been holding myself back from myself for so long. And of course, the rain rolled in. It was almost like something from a movie but it was for me, a very spiritual and enlightening moment. I felt so happy and proud to have stood up to my negative self talk and just did it. It was as if nature and the heavens were rooting me on allowing me to be free, no judgement. My true self wanted to swim and I finally listened. Doubting daisy just kept holding me back telling me NO, and that moment I was completely liberated from her.
I’d never shared that moment until now. That moment taught me that I needed to love and appreciate myself more and to stop judging myself. One of my biggest fears then was that people wouldn’t love me just the way that I was. I had many experiences growing up where I was made to feel ashamed of who I was by my social peers and that had truly stuck with me. That issue still arises at times to this day. I want to thank you for sharing your story and allowing me to feel free enough to share this here Cannot wait to read more of your blogs – God Bless
Arcade1020

I love how you word things. Lol. Awesome blog! Lindsay great story! Sounds like I was increditable!

Wayne
Anonymous

Thanks so much Wayne!
Anonymous

Wow Lindsay, I got God Bumps reading your heart felt story. You are on an amazing liberating path of realizing that the only opinion that really matters is your own-no one can define us, make us who we are or even make us feel a certain way unless we allow them too.

I love how you name the part of yourself, Doubting Daisy…it’s wonderful because she will be apart of your life forever, acknowledge her when she “pops” up and ask what she needs to be complete-to feel better- and listen hard because you will get the answer just like you did by diving into that ocean and freeing her. Once we can accept ourselves, every part of ourselves then we are free. I’m inspired by this story and think the world should hear more of who you are and what you are learning…I hope you keep on sharing!
Om Shanti